a lot has happened over the last 3 weeks. a lot of which i am not supposed to say. but a lot more i will say anyway.
i finally have come to peace with myself. in the end, on hindsight, having deborah as a friend is indeed much better. and for all that is worth, i wish her and her boyfriend the best of luck in their relationship. it was fun spending time with one of my oldest friends after so long.
i have seen many things in the last 3 weeks that question the moral standing of things. what is right and what is wrong. whether something as innocuous as your beliefs could get you in trouble. whether in doing your job, you lose your humanity. whether people are just making noise for the sake of doing so; for the fact of being heard but forgetting the bigger picture. some things people may do things that are justified, but the way they do it is ridculous. they have no credit themselves thus they will not succeed.
finally the hour is approaching. that that was taken from me shall soon be mine again. freedom beckons nearer and nearer each day. with this freedom i have many plans. i will list the here so i will remember and hopefully commit to them.
i will make music sooner or later. perhaps i am no musical genius like BT but i will find my own way. firstly, i will learn the guitar. i will then take up the piano again. I have attended the open house for sae singapore and should go for the electronic music producer course. and god willing, stefan let me train with his turntables. and learn turntabling. i need to get a part time job with a media company to learn what i need to learn. i will get my black belt in tkd next year. and if time allows possibly learn a new language.
i have the plan. now only if i found the discipline to do all the above.
so much time wasted. so much youth gone. 20 years have gone by without a trace, the only evidence left is a fading memory. so much more to experience, so much more to mourn. time to make the best of whats left.
on a side note, i would like to congratulate hady mirza: winner singapore idol 2.
just don’t waste it now you have got it. if i had it, i would make the best of it.
to life.
